31 May 2014

Highschool Graduate?!

I graduated highschool a week ago today. Strange to think that so much has happened since then, so much has happened to me, things I was looking forward to and others that I wasn't, but it turned out being one of the best experiences of my life that I know I will always remember.

I have grown a lot since the beginning of freshman year in highschool, back in August of 2010. I really have opened my eyes to things and have become more open to new things and new people, these last two days, Thursday and Friday, I had college orientation and it was the saddest, weirdest, most annoying thing to me because I just graduated a place that I completely and absolutely love and now I have to move on to a place that I felt would take forever to grow on me, I would be unhappy and uncomfortable until who knows how many months in.

I was so utterly wrong. The two orientation days only opened my eyes and excited me for the future that was completely unknown but exhilarating. When I arrived  in the morning, on the first day, all I knew was that I was nervous and that all the new students were stressing me out because this was only a small group of my new class, due to the fact that there is multiple orientation sessions and I was at session one. The current students that were leading the orientation were quick to make me feel comfortable and welcomed.

I was not looking forward to that orientation in the slightest, I wanted the weekend to come so I could be done and over with the two days that I would have to be spending at my new school with a lot of people that I didn't even know.

My last day of orientation was yesterday, and I really honestly and truly wish I could go back for one more day (or two I don't know....). I loved it so much that I want to get to August already so I can go to the welcome week for the new students and current students that will finish helping us get accustomed to college life. But of course, it's summer and I'm going to enjoy my time off.

The first few days after graduation and before orientation, I was sad, and kind of angry. I left a place I loved so dearly and was expected to show up to another location with people I never knew and form a new routine and new friendships, but it turned out being something so exciting.

I can honestly say that I am so ecstatic to be going to college this coming August, making new friends and trying new things. I'll be adventurous in the things I do and I won't care about what anyone thinks of me or if they tell me I can't do something because of my personality. I have dreams and if I want to achieve them, I'll have to throw myself (obviously with certain caution) to opportunities and events, organizations and people that will help me get where I want to get and where I am meant to be.

Here's to new beginnings! -J

13 May 2014

The End is Near.

I know I haven't posted in a while and I'm really kicking myself over for that. I've been a very busy busy bee. As you may or may not know, I am a senior in high school, and that means I am naturally, very busy and very stressed.

Having said that, I have three days of high school left and it is the craziest most surreal thing that I have ever experienced (well besides concerts). I have "senior week" next week which is the time when all the seniors say their final farewell to all the other classes and friends, Freshmen, Sophomores, and Juniors.

It is definitely bittersweet. I remember walking in as a freshman and being completely and utterly terrified. I looked at the school map that was on my desk and I found all the classrooms I would be having class in, checking which hallways I could use to get their fast from where I was currently or where I would be.

Just now I'm thinking about all these events over the last four years that seem like they happened only yesterday, and I feel nostalgic and sad but happy and excited because my high school experience was one I never would have imagined. I never thought that I would be this happy in a school, I used to think middle school was the best "Aww yeah look at me I'm such a high and mighty awesome eighth grader, fearrrr my furryyyyyyy!!!" I mean, sure, eighth grade was a great year that I did enjoy and I did have awesome friends with me through it, but it has absolutely nothing on my last four years in high school.

I graduate next Saturday (as in a week from this coming Saturday). And then I have my college orientation on the Thursday and Friday after that. Strange. Exciting. New. Terrifying.

I am sad to be leaving this part of my life behind me, another chapter is coming to it's close but I am so utterly excited to see what else there is, what is coming and what am I going to experience what will change and what won't?

You know they say life is a box of chocolates? You never know what you'll get? Yes, I definitely agree with that, but I also think life is like a chapter book and you are the author. You know, you can write this and that but you might end up changing it later, you never know what you'll come up with and where it might lead you. So many chapters to fill, so much time to live and experience. Work hard, don't take anything for granted, and make your book AMAZING. 

btw - sorry for that cliche ending, I know I know.

Enjoy the rest of your school year and be happy! -J