Stress

I'm currently a senior in high school, when Junior year ended I was ecstatic because the one year I had been waiting for, for what seemed like forever, was finally within reach! Everyone in the classes above me always told me, "Sophomore year is the absolute hardest!" but then I'd hear "Junior year is the worst, colleges see your grades!" and everyone always praised Senior year as the "easiest" year and always talked about "senior slide".

Personally, I think Sophomore year was awesome, it was way harder than Freshman year, yes, but it wasn't as impossible as everyone made it appear. Junior year was amazing!!! I loved  Junior year. Now, I sit in a desk, as one of the many seniors. Literally, the leaders of the school, and sure it feels great to say "I'm a Senior" and it's nice being the oldest, with the most to look forward to in the next year, but it is the most stressful, and busy year of my high school life.

Being a senior is so much more than just "being a senior". The role comes along with the weight of leadership, spirit, unity, we are looked up to by the underclassmen. Everyone is watching us to see what we mold into, who we'll be by the time May rolls around and we're finally graduating. How will we leave our mark? Along with all that, everyone is asking about college.

College, college, college.

What schools are you looking at? Do you wanna go out of state? Are you staying in state? Will you stay at a dorm or will you commute? What do you want to do in the future? What are your interests? What are you looking to major in? Why do you want to major in that? Have you taken the SATs? How about the ACTs? Are you doing early action? Do you have a dream school?

It's all too much.

I think some adults need to take a few steps back and realize that we're only 17, 18 years old. We don't have our entire life planned out. We still have so many decisions to make, and things to do. And although they are trying to be helpful, they are really only making a lot of us more stressed.

They tell me that colleges see my 1st quarter grades, so while I'm trying to juggle all these other classes, the tests and quizzes, the homework, I am also looking at colleges. I'm looking at application deadlines, and scholarship deadlines, and costs and trying to figure out what it is I want to do.

It gets overwhelming at times, sometimes its almost as though I would like to just lock myself up in a dark room for a few minutes, away from everyone and just take a deep breath without someone hounding on me about my future and what it is I'm planning for myself.

It's all difficult right now, we're getting through the college process, slowly but surely. And I'm going to enjoy my senior year, I'm going to make the best of my last year in high school, with all my amazing classmates. Because I sure do not want to look back a year from now, wishing I had enjoyed everything, I want to instead take in every moment that comes along with senior year.

There is stress, but we all have to take a deep breath, and enjoy. Everything will turn out the way its supposed to. -J